Short.

Finally, I've decided to create a blog post after a very long and silent while.

To give you an idea how busy and stressed and mobile I was, I'd only tell one thing: I haven't slept right for the last four or five weeks - that long enough. I know it's bad. I know. And I totally swear (to the nth thime, mind you) that I'll be sleeping early starting this Monday. I do totally hope for that.

This is so failing.

Okay. I give up.

The proxy server in the University of the Philippines Diliman is so strict when it comes to videos (and music and porn, yeah yeah).

Agh. I have to wait until five in the afternoon to view and download the videos that we have watched yesterday (just because I need to watch them again and listen to them very very closely. Oh well. Flop morning.

I'm here at the first floor of Gonzales Hall (a.k.a. Main Library), General Reference Section. I have no breakfast yet. The only thing I consumed was a combo of Tuna on Pan de Sal and some gulps of water. I need to eat a power breakfast, I know. But I woke up late enough to miss it.

I'm supposed to go to Palma Hall now and stay there for a while. I can't go home (or dorm, for proper terminologies) yet with an empty stomach. Neither way with an empty wallet (yeah, bingo). I know. It's hard. But this is my life. If I can't live with it, then what's the purpose? :D

Say one last prayer.

I don't get it.

Is it for the sake of being too real enough or just for the selfish cause of flaunting it to the world?

I just simply find it absurd praying to God - through status updates in Facebook. I mean, what are those for?

God isn't exclusively on Facebook or somewhere else, so I don't get the reason for doing such an act.

I just hope that it's not for the sake of letting the whole world know that you, yourself, does such an act, an act to seem overly religious or something else.

People of the world, we need HUMILITY, okay?

She's sensitive and insensitive at the same time.

She never realized it.

She was only a face placed on cheap pedestal.

She was overly proud of it.

She was excessively proud about it.

She had seen nothing else except herself.

She was the only relevant thing known to her own.

She was another stupid mortal.

She was even lesser than some low-life being.

She was nothing.

She was definitely nothing.

She only cared for herself.

She thought she could be hurt, while hurting others.

She never was concerned.

She never tried to be a friend.

She only used.

She thought it was okay.

She thought she could get over me.

She only thought about herself, I tell you.

She's a fool trying to make a fool out of someone else.

She never realized it.

She's not the world.

She doesn't get it.

She won't, of course, for she had that precisely defined mind of an excessive person (excessive to where, that is).

She can't love herself.

She can't appreciate any other thing except for her excessive self.

She can't be true, how we wish.

But she is.

And she has not realized it.

No, not yet.

She must not live.

She must not live in this world so we can attain harmony in living with other - and nicer - people.

She's not nice, of course. Who was she trying to fool?

She can't get it.

She's going to rot.

She must.

She's just a face - a rotten one - that must join the other decayed creatures below the ground.

Goodbye, overly proud girl.

I hope you can make yourself more believable, and in every way nicer.

Sensibility.

I'm not supposed to be.

Should I even wonder why I am existing?

Okay. It's complex as always and I don't even care to lift an eyebrow about it.

Or maybe it's too complex for others just because they won't care to lift a brain about it.

Or maybe it's just that.

Simple as that.

We humans are made to disagree with each other.

Don't you get that?

No, you don't? See.

It's odd.

It is.

Oh well. This is actually a senseless post. So why even care?

Besides, nobody cares. It's all a matter of self. We only care for ourselves and what we want for ourselves that we're not seeing the bigger picture that's postered just in front of us.

Oh well. As I said, this is senseless.

And you don't get it.

Don't pretend. You're not sensible. You're not sensitive. You're not the you that you want you to be.

Don't you get it? It's that simple.

It's that simple.

I don't expect you to freak out.

I expect you to be hurt - to be hurt by your elevated state of false pride, a pride that you hold on too much that it's more important than your health, your body, you.

Why do you hold on too much on such an abstract social construct?

Doesn't it hurt you to be just you, the you who you are now, the you who you truly are?

Slap yourself and wake up from your sleep. Wipe those morning glories away.

Look at the world.

It's not you.

It's not me.

The world is the world itself, and it doesn't give a damn.

The world doesn't care at all.

I already warned you: this is a senseless post.

UPD became Central Park by noon.

The Bike Lane - or the Lane Bike, as it is read - was on vacation for two days, starting yesterday.

To those who have not known, the University of the Philippines College Admission Test (UPCAT) had started yesterday morning and ended this afternoon in four batches.

This noon - or it was before noon, in fact - it took me an effin' hour to hail a passenger-less taxicab. "[It's] Worth a million every five cars!", my friend Mary Rose Johana Samas have said. Noontime - UPCAT day - is dreadful. It really took me ages to get out of campus. What's up with that?

Oh well. We still hope for the best for the aspiring.

Another UPCAT saturday.

A new set of hopeful - and hopeless - examinees, faces of excitement and despair, and with no. 2 pencils at hand, withstood the deathless rain in Metro Manila just to take the 2009 University of the Philippines College Admission Test (UPCAT) in an attempt to secure their admission to college next year in the sole national university in the country. Of course, being as it is, the entrance exam for the University of the Philippines isn't just some easy couch. It's a test of hard stones and mind-breaking questions. Some may even have to undergo a series of reviews just to prepare for it.

Thousands of senior high school students across the archipelago took a chance today, the first day of the UPCAT, with one batch in the morning and another in the afternoon. UP Diliman roads today were filled with vehicles, private outnumbering passenger ones - which made us walk from Molave Residence Hall up to Philcoa. It was all traffic. Damn.

UPCAT takes much time, for aspiring examinees and regular people trying to go out of campus. Oh well. After all, it's a mixture of luck, intelligence, and strategy. For those who are taking the examinations tomorrow, I wish you all good luck! See you on the list, aspirant. We hope for a new outstanding and deserving set of freshmen next year! :D

The bottom line, Cory, and Rodic's.

I just checked out my blogsites and I realized how low I was in managing all three sites: Ang Pilit na Pag-abot sa Mataas na Kalangitan, Lost in Disturbing Tranquility, and Under Different Perspectives. I have not been posting too much. But I felt like I have been posting too little entries. Oh well, how would I know if someone's reading, by the way? That doesn't matter much. I know, sometime, somewhere, it will.

It's the first day of August. Former president and People Power Icon Corazon "Cory" Cojuangco-Aquino, wife of assassinated senator and opposition leader Benigno "Ninoy" Aquino, died this morning, at age 76. She was announced dead by 03.18 in the morning, Manila time, due to Cardio-Respiratory arrest. She was earlier diagnosed with Stage 4 Colon Cancer and was battling the disease for months. Now let's be assured that she can finally rest in peace.

However, yesterday, 31st of July, Rodic's Diner celebrated their 60th anniversary. A classic and popular dining place in the University of the Philippines Diliman, situated at the UP Shopping Center, Rodic's Diner has now been also popular in Makati, being situated in Salcedo Street, Legazpi Village. Tapsilog, a dish comprised of shredded tapa (beef), sinangag na kanin (fried rice), and piniritong itlog (fried egg), has become a bestseller, being the most ordered dish in the establishment. My personal favorites are their Jumbosilog (Jumbo Hotdog with Sinangag and Piniritong Itlog), Sinigang na Baboy (Pork... I can't translate sinigang!), and Liempo (Roast Pork something... I'm not good at explaining food.).

This month, August, means Buwan ng Wika (Month of Language) in the Philippines. It is expected that most schools, especially primary and secondary, will celebrate this month long celebration, along with the celebration for president Manuel Quezon, who established Filipino, a language largely based on Tagalog with some words from different local languages, as the official language of the Philippines, along with English.