I just feel so betrayed.

This must be not real. I feel betrayed by my own parents.

It's not a real big deal, though. But the fact that you weren't told about this and that and they told you something else and they kept you hoping until forever until this absurd news came, it's just so unreal. No. No way.

And I now it's not a good idea, but I definitely want to fade away.

I want to fade away, like a bubble.

I want to probably die.

If onnly dying could erase it all and make it something good.